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Date: 2019-08-31 08:38 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] gr1m
That'd be the day.

[Read over anything that seemed important at least twenty-times over by now, to the point he'd had to stop going or else something would catch fire from his own frustration despite his control. The War. The Arehtei destroying everything in their madness from the use of emotion fueled weaponry corrupting them. Corrupting the entire world. Simpatheias sacrificing herself to save this island.

Thras and Daimonia no affected by the madness, thus both protecting and hiding their own cities. Their people. The other island being found. These artifacts being found. People going out to try and recover the lands and cities lost that belonged to the other Arehtei.

There was so much, and still so very few answers.

This was no existence for him. Tilted the bottle and his head back, finishing the entire bottle in one go like that, letting it drop as he fumbled for another.]

Date: 2019-08-31 08:52 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
She arrived about a month or so after I did. [Technicalities there, but why not.

Slid a bottle closer using the one he managed to grab so it was within Jack's reach, sitting back a little heavily with his own.]


You know that place where... everything is warm and light? Nice feeling, kind that makes you feel like you can do anything.

Gotten well in to that point. [Reyes was that kind of drunk. Knew he was, and didn't give a single fuck that he was.]

You?

Date: 2019-08-31 09:14 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (Don't talk about the polish)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
Selfish part of me wants to stay at times. Rest of me knows I can't.

[At least they were both comfortable while drinking, even if only one of them was slowly moving towards trying to blackout from it.

Hummed a little, taking a bit longer to get the lid off his.. fourth? Fifth? Whatever, the latest bottle he'd grabbed. Took a little while to get it off, letting it bounced off the coffee table.]


Last time I got like this on something normal was the night before the first round of injections started, for the batch I was in. We all figured it was our last chance before possibly dying from whatever they were going to be putting in us. [Putting them through.] Worth it.

Date: 2019-08-31 09:29 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] gr1m
If I had a reason to.

[Seemed simple; if he had a reason to want to stay, he'd chose to stay. Otherwise... what other reason would he have? That selfish part of him was at least somewhat reasonable.

Head tilted back, just holding on to that bottle.]


Did one better. Group of us went out in a few 'borrowed' cars and got as much as we could get, brought it all back. Partied it up in the Mess. [Young and dumb and not knowing who would live or die, so giving it one last go.] We all slept there, too.

Date: 2019-08-31 10:02 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] gr1m
I don't know if I do.

[Well, he was being honest at least.

Finally he did take a sip from the bottle, smaller than the last few swings from the previous bottle had been.]
Some of us were, some of us weren't because we know how to avoid a hangover well enough.

Honestly? I wish I'd been hungover, wouldn't have been as bad as that shit felt.

Date: 2019-08-31 10:19 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (What even is this)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
Yeah. The mission back home is important, I need to get back to it, even if it manages to kill, me.

[No matter what some selfish part of him might want. It wouldn't matter the moment he did finally get sent back, wouldn't remember anything. Be like it never had happened, never even mattered at all.

Some had drank as much as they could out of fear, some because they wanted their possible last moment alive before it all started to be a damned memorable one- well. One that could have been thought of as something fun.]


Like blood was boiling and bones were melting.

Date: 2019-08-31 11:03 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (Faded in and out)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
Knowing Talon? They're likely trying to come up with a way, somewhere. Just how they are.

[Some sort of precaution, because there really was no denying just how dangerous he was, and how dangerous he could potentially be. Way he liked it, despite knowing it was a double-edged sword. All the more reason for no one to actively step on his toes whenever he did set down something.

The agony was hard to forget. SEP was rough, it was all so very experimental, an nothing was guaranteed, even if they did improve with every failure and every success. What was being done would always be a painful process.]


I get that feeling daily like this.

Date: 2019-08-31 11:15 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] gr1m
The only way you leave Talon is in a coffin. [Some more forcibly with some internal skirmishes for power, and others just outright being greedy. Some genuinely finally seeing Talon for what it really was, but in too deep. Too late.

He flexed the fingers of the hand not holding the bottle-]


Gotten numb to it, just background noise. Makes it difficult to notice injuries unless they're really bad. [Like trying to move with a few broken ribs.] Real noticeable whenever I pull certain tricks of mine, too.

Date: 2019-08-31 11:45 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (Did you really just do that)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
Talon got good at portraying themselves as a group that wants to help the beaten down, give power to the weak- to help. [He knew damn well just how Talon worked, intimately these days.] They took advantage of people who lost everything to the Crisis, people Overwatch was too slow to get to.

There are those that genuinely think they're good.

[Others that had no where else to go, those that didn't care they were hurting people, just wanting the power, the thrill- everything that came with it.

His head tilted, glancing Jack over.]
Not like I'd ever say shit otherwise.

[Another slow, small swig.]

Gotta cope somehow.

Date: 2019-09-01 06:20 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (This is getting annoying now)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
I know it by heart now, and have seen it more than enough times personally. [Wasn't just that they didn't have the resources. Didn't have the manpower.

Sure, Blackwatch pulled in some of the people Talon would have, but once shit went to hell they ended up there in the end anyway.

He had tried.]


Why drag other people in to my shit? [Unless he was drowning to the point he couldn't see a way out, and by then he felt it was too late. Who'd come?

Jack, apparently.]
I'm not the only one suffering.

No one should have to deal with my shit on top of their own.

Date: 2019-09-01 09:55 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (Just turn out all the lights)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
There are people in certain areas even I don't have yet. Part of why I needed that list of names still in the computer. [Why he had dropped in on Winston, and hell if the Recall didn't make some known when they wanted to sell the information to Talon.

For once? There'd be no argumentative tone from Gabriel on the subject, just something low and so close to melancholic than anything else. No mood to argue, and the way the alcohol was going through him couldn't get up the type of energy for it either.

Eyes kept on his own bottle.]


Always had to bury my own shit to deal with something else, no time for it. Something else to be done, something more important than wallowing in my suffering.

[Unlike here.

Gaze lifted from his bottle to Jack, and he just looked... tired. Haggard. Dark circles obvious under his eyes, gaunt even.]


I'm tired, Jack.

[... Well it was something?]

Date: 2019-09-02 11:16 pm (UTC)
gr1m: (You are an absolute dumbass)
From: [personal profile] gr1m
With numerous shell companies and other tricks to hide behind. Almost better when all they wanted was money and power. [Obvious what they were gearing towards now, front row seat. Unfortunately Reyes didn't hold the same beliefs- the more actual Overwatch agents that saw him as the enemy? Likely the better.

Who knows, could save them.

Funny, he could take what he was doing. Didn't matter how far down he dug himself, there was at least a goal, some sort of distance between what he was doing and everything else. Acceptance and drive to keep going. A need for it.

Here he was basically being slingshotted back and fourth so out of his comfort zone and what had become normal that he barely knew what to do anymore. It was pathetic, but he was just so damn tired. Some hollow laugh, brief as the noise was.]


It was easier when I just growled and grunted at people until they left me alone. [Spent a few months like that, honestly.] Killed things for money, never stopped moving, kept as far from people as possible unless it was needed for some job or trip.

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